Monday, July 28, 2008

Without WLS this would have never happened!

This will be a reoccurring theme in this blog because after all, it is about the positive side of weight loss. Stuff I have done, stuff I can do, stuff that has happened because weight loss surgery made it possible. Believe me...I am well aware that my brain had to follow but it was because I was able to get to a manageable size that I allowed me to try some things that I would have never done. This will explain what led up to winning the contest mentioned in my previous post.

A couple of months ago I was standing in Starbucks and saw a poster on the bulletin board. It said Cesar dog food was hosting a small dog contest at the mall near me. Online there were details about the only two mall contests and one of them was in Dallas!

My first reaction was "I want to do this!" Of course there was a bit of "stinkin thinkin" going on.

Sundance came into our lives because of a wonderful woman named Vicki that fostered him when he showed up at a shelter with an atrophied leg that had to be amputated. You can see a video here.

Sundance's video

OK so there's another one.
Sundance's other video

So continuing with stinkin thinkin process.....
What would they want with a 3 legged dog and 50 something woman?
You can dress girl dogs up with hundreds of accessories.
What would I dress him in?
Would he even wear it?
Why do I question myself?

It doesn't cost a thing to participate except some time. I'm in!

I found a very inexpensive hat and t-shirt for him and then splurged on a leather vest for me. The rules didn't give you much of a hint on whether the "person" was supposed to dress up too so I went for it.

When I arrived there was literally a red carpet and something like 6 to 8 photographers that were shooting pictures...flashes going off everywhere. This is one of the shots they took.


It was really hot outside and I had no idea that we would have our picture made right away but I had put it into motion and there was no going back.

As I walked up to the line there were 25 people with dogs ahead of me.

Cute dogs and cute people.

I recall seeing this woman that worked at the mall and she formed her lips perfectly so that I could understand her words even though I couldn't hear her. She said "You should win" and smiled at me. That alone was enough return on my investment for the dressing up, worrying about Sundance and worrying about my thought process that got me there.

As I approached the stage I was asked why I thought Sundance was a star. Explaining his former life and how difficult it was made him a star in my eyes. I told them his life had become a fairy tale now and the hardest thing he's had to do since he's been with us is to wear that hat. I guess it worked.

Now the important part.

Yes it happened because of the weight loss surgery but the procedure alone was not the total answer. My plumbing was rearranged so that I could get to a manageable size to do the things that I could not before. After losing that weight I had to do "surgery" on my brain. That was definitely the hardest part but only because it is a bone of contention among the bariatric pros. Many programs, various information...but nothing concrete. The field is new and I believe most of us are stumbling around in the dark...desperately looking for an answer to keep the weight off. That was truly the issue in the first place wasn't it?

In future posts I will address what has worked for me. It slips out in most of what I write but the very first and most important issues is to stop blaming, shaming and judging.

Do I mean others? yep...but most of all quit doing it to yourself.

There's a great quote from Robert Burney. He says that the battlecry for people like me is "I'll show you, I'll get me!" When we do these horrible things to ourselves we only hurt the one beautiful soul we are responsible for. ME!

So my challenge to you....for just today. Go 24 hours without shaming, blaming and judging yourself or anyone else. In fact if you come into contact with someone that is absolutely awful, feel pity for them but do not judge them. Again when you are so adept at doing it to others, you will also be adept at doing it to yourself.

Oh ye of little faith, do not condemn something prior to investigation! It is a sure way to continue to walk in the dark cruel world of obesity. I am free! At least for this very moment because we cannot be perfect but we CAN get better every day.

I was already ahead of the game because I did not have a cruel word for anyone but I made up for it in terms of how I talked to myself. I quit that just about the time this little contest came along and look where it got me. It allowed me to be the person I should have always been.

A trophy, some incredible prizes, a chance for a grand prize (to be announced in October) and a beautiful dog and family. Those external things don't make me happy....the happiness comes from within.

In the past I did it backwards. Wanting things to make me happy. Now I am happy and things are coming to me every single day that are beyond anything I ever expected.



3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Cool! That is such a great story!

debra said...

ahh love the post and the pics of you and my little guy...miss him...well miss you more....

i love you so much thank you for all you do

GastricGirl said...

You are a true inspiration to me! :) Sundance is precious! Good luck with the contest!